rock bottom is a place where i never thought i would see myself. but when you’re constantly being told that you made the wrong decision in the major you chose because you are having trouble finding a job, and being told that you are worthless and going to be unsuccessful in life, rock bottom is kind of where you are at. it sucks. when you are told that you are worthless and going to be unsuccessful, you actually start to believe it. i’m lacking the strength i need to pick myself up and prove him wrong. this is mostly because i know he’s waiting for me to fail some more. failure is what scares me the most. i’m not used to facing failure. the few hardships i have had to face were not failures to me, but they were to him. i’m a disappointment.
i need help getting out of this depressed slump. what i really need is for someone to slap some sense into me. i want to smile and be happy again.